Plans?

Plans are funny aren't they? I am a big planner. Always have been. And lists are my best friends. Being such a scatter brain they are actually quite imperative for me. Ever since I was a little girl I would sit and dream up what my future would look like. Where would I live (we moved a lot), what would I look like as a grown up? Who would I marry? What career would I have?
Fast forward 16 or so years.

I love my life. It's not quite what I had expected or planned it would be a year ago:) In fact my husband and I had planned to be childless professionals till we were upwards of thirty, saving as much as we could to buy a house as debt free as possible and then when we were nestled into our newly acquired house, then we would consider parenthood. Isn't it funny how life changes things? Rather how God chuckles when we make plans?;)

January 19th 2010  I felt a little different and found out that afternoon that little Miss Hailey Belle was well on her way via a pregnancy test. Funny little things those tests. It's amazing how a little plastic stick you pee on can carry so much weight. Looking down and seeing those three digital letters simply stating "yes" my whole world began to spin. "wait.. what? When? how?"
SURPRISE! We would soon be parents. After about two months of shaking our heads, wiping the nervous sweat from our brow and staring at each other in shock and awe we began to come to grips with the new plan. Though scarred out of my mind I was cautiously excited. I would finally get to be the thing I have wanted to be since I was 12 year old. A mommy.
You see after being diagnosed with endometriosis and having awful periods my entire adolescent life I was sure I would never be able to carry a baby to full term.  So though I was excited with the prospect of being a mommy I didn't want to really embrace the idea till we were "out of the woods" as they say.

We now look at our little angel in shock and awe but this time for a different reason. We are amazed that God in His infinite mercy and love chose us lowly wretches to be her Mommy and Daddy. We can't for the life of us figure out why except that He just loves us that much.
Hailey is amazing. I cannot even begin to express to you how much I love that little jelly bean. And as much as I love her now, my love only grows with each new day. I know why and how a parent could easily lay their life down for their child without a second thought. I will do anything and everything in my power to ensure her safety and happiness all the days of her life. And if anyone ever hurts my little angel I am not afraid to go to jail:).

It's funny when you look at plans. They never quite turn out the way we expect them to and yet still we plan.
I think I will always be a planner. It's part of what makes me tick. But along the road I will smile at each detour that brings me to a glorious new destination that wasn't quite on my map and thank the Lord for bringing me there:)

Future plans include: job, house, business venture, newer cars
It will be interesting to see which ones come true and if so how they will....
To be continued