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Sigh... Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to succeed. Wait that's not right... Well it sorta fits what I am about to blog and needed a clever opening line to GRAB the readers attention. Did it work? Oh yeah I guess since your still reading thus far it must have worked:) (insert satisfied grin)

So today's offering will be a jumbled mess of bullet point thoughts I have been churning about my little head as of late in no particular order starting with

• The reason our country is in the crappy financial state that it is in is banks suck at doing ANYTHING efficiently even when it is to their monetary advantage.
• Going on a low carb diet is not so easy when your trying to save money. Meat and veggies are the most expensive things to purchase while you can feed an entire family for 10 cents with Ramen Noodles (the worst thing you can possibly eat beside a fried stick of butter)
• When you get to the point where staying home with your baby is so important that your willing to hand over your wallet and keys to your spouse so you wont be tempted to spend money, that's when you know your a mommy:)
• I wish there was a button you could push that would make dishes and laundry magically wash dry and put themselves away. 
• When my neighbors let their child cry for hours on end and have very loud conversations in Spanish I'm really tempted to do one of three things. A. Call the cops B. Bang on the wall and C. Leave a note on the door saying something along the lines of "Dear annoying neighbors, while we LOVE hearing your child's incessant cry and your boisterous discussions regarding who didn't flush the toilet at all hours of the night, please bear in mind we share a wall with you and it would be nice to ya know; NOT HEAR YOUR CHILD'S CRY AND YOUR LOUD SPANISH EXCHANGES. Sincerely your tired neighbors."
• I am madly in love with my sweet husband. He is the best thing *besides my Heavenly Father* that has ever happened to me. He has made my life a true fairy tale and is the best husband and Father I could ever have imagined. He is so sweet with our baby girl and she adores him. You can see it in her eyes when she looks at him:). He is supportive, encouraging, strong, wise, brilliant, funny, SO sexy, a man full of integrity and character, he is fiercely loyal and incredibly loving. Not to mention he not only puts up with my silly weird sometimes off sense of humor but he actually loves me for it. One thing I always said I needed in a man. One who didn't love me despite my quirks, but loved me because of them. To find the person with whom *for the first time EVER in my life* I could be and was completely myself no holds barred nothing held back or "prettied up" was like living for the first time. To be all me was like breathing unfettered for the first time. :) Growing up every little girl imagines and dreams of her future "Knight in shining armor" but I got one better. He is not only everything I ever imagined but so much better, he literally came at the perfect time and saved me from myself. I adore my husband and pray that I can be the wife he deserves. Though to be perfect will be a bit of a challenge since I'm about as imperfect as they come;). I love that man and am thrilled that He is the one I have a family with, and He is the Father of my child and future children:) sigh..
• There are OH so many more random thoughts, but since it is ever so late and I have gotten my nightly writing fix, I will leave you with this one nugget of information;
• The title has absolutely nothing to do with this blog:)

My Hailey, your amazing just the way you are

I have a beautiful baby girl. She is the light of my life and the sweetest thing in my world. My Hailey has sweet blue eyes with long eye lashes, full lips (like her daddy) with the perfect cupids bow. A perfectly round fuzzy little head with chubby cheeks to add to her roundness. :) She has these precious rolls everywhere that make you just want to squeeze her. When she's in a playful mood she grins and scrunches up her cute little button nose (like me;)) and tries so hard to talk. Of course its usually "aboo" "Mguu" or "pbththpht".

My daughter is so adorable and people tell me so all the time after the question "whats that thing on her face?"
You see, Hailey has what is called a Hemangioma. It's a large puffy birthmark that is a deep burgundy color that is located behind her cheek on her neck and neck and earlobe. Dr's still don't know what causes them though they are so common that 1 in 100 children have them at or shortly after birth.
"Don't worry, I've heard they go away on their own" well meaning people usually reassure me after asking me for the fifth time something about her mark.
I know its very visible and most people don't mean any harm, though "is that thing still on her face?" or "what's with her ear?" aren't very couth ways to bring up the subject. I'm actually impressed when people meet her for the first time and coo about her cuteness without bringing up or asking me something about "that thing".

I know I sound a bit bitter but please don't get me wrong, I am not upset with anyone or even about her having it, my only concern is for her. If intelligent adults don't know better then to make rude remarks about my baby girl's appearance how much worse will it be for her when she is surrounded by KIDS? They can be so mean. (Though I must say my cousins 3 year old saying "uh oh! she got in the makeup!" was pretty cute;).
I pray that my angel is so independent and self confident that nothing anyone says will hurt her heart. I pray that she knows so well who she is in Christ that no one can make her feel like anything less than a breathtakingly beautiful princess.

I'm not sure how to instill confidence when that was never my strong suit, but with God's grace and wisdom I will do the best that I can to let her know that no matter what ANYONE says, "there could never be a more beautiful you"

And with that I dedicate this song to my Hailey

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

2011 resolutions

Where was I? Oh yes, New Years Resolutions.
Number one, suppliment income
To have my wedding/glamor party business up and running
Number two, Pay off debt
Self explanatory:)
Number three, Get healthy lose 20 lbs
Very doable just have to commit and DO IT!!
Number four, Begin potty training Hailey once she has learned how to walk
Number five, Have faithful bible study time
Number six Join choir and use my love for singing for a purpose (to honor God and bless His people)
Number seven keep up this blog
Number eight Finish all projects from 2010:)
And that is only the first eight but lets work on these and WHEN *not if * I have completed most of them I will add a few more to the list;)
 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I had no idea it would be this hard...

It is officially 2011 and as is my yearly tradition I have been very introspective as of late.
I have a bunch on my mind and a few possibilities that are pretty exciting (if they happen)...
Number one is to find a way to suppliment our income. Thats where the curlers come in:). I am as of December 1st a lisenced hair stylist. I could go to work in a salon and hopefully make a decent living. But that is where the crib sheets come in. I am madly in love with being a mommy and had no flipping clue how hard it would be to leave my little angel in the care of someone else regardless of who they are. I love my in laws and know they ADORE the air she breaths but I still cried when leaving her overnight for the first time with them. It's one of those things that baffles me. I love kids and always have and knew I would adore my children, but  because of my laid back independant nature I figured I would be very nonchelant about raising kids. In some ways I am (I don't over sterilize our household to the surgery ready manner like most first time moms do), but I have shocked even myself by how much I worry about certain things.
For example; Hailey will be 4 months on the 13th and tonight is the first night she is sleeping in her own room. (judge me if you want to on either side but I am only just ready now).. I simply could not let her sleep in her own room for fear of SIDS, intruders etc. But I got to the point last night realizing that I was doing her no favors by keeping my poor 15 lbs child in her infant bassinet, and we were losing way too much sleep, so tonight we have instituited 'operation sleep schedule'. We had a nice big bottle, snuggle time and fuzzy warm pajamas and have the video monitor turned on (thank you Mimi and Poppy). So... maybe mommy and Daddy will get to sleep a little longer than 5 hours tonight:).

Hmm where was I going with that? Oh yes, it's so hard to think about leaving my munchkin. And I feel bad because we have a fabulous nanny lined up for her. She is a real treasure to have found and I want to help her out with hours etc but then I come back to the fact that I'm not gonna get to be the one observing Hailey's first steps and teaching her her fist words and it breaks my heart. Yes I know this coming from "Miss Independant" herself. So what to do? How does one take that first plunge into the working world? I have no idea. But we are in the process of building my wedding hair business so I can focus on that during the weekends and get to eventually be the one teaching Hailey all her new tricks:) I love being a mom and hope and pray I get to be the best one possible.

Ok so I completely missed the original point of this post.. I'll cover my New Years Resolutions in another post.